Monday, November 21, 2011
22.11.11
Went to Mt.Takao with coworkers and some artists staying at TWS! My first time going there and it was absolutely beautiful!! I got some two best fortunes so hopefully it will be amazing for the rest of the year!
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
15.11.11
There is nothing to be afraid of if you are not scared of losing something. I am not sure if it is anything but my weird pride that is bugging me and preventing me to break out of myself. I've recently lost interest in anything; job, hobby, relationship, friends... I took a trip with my friends and my significant other this past weekend and honestly I couldn't think of anything but whether they were enjoying it. It's really been so the whole time... I am always worrying about whether I am impressing the others well enough... Gag I need to stop this.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
09.11.11
どうしたら
部屋きれいになるんだろう？
友達と仲良くなれるんだろう？
恋人と上手くやってけるんだろう？
時間通りに物事進められるんだろう？
多趣味になれるんだろう？
早起きできるんだろう？
人見知りなくなるんだろう？
物知りになれるんだろう？
余計な事言わなくなるんだろう？
尊敬されるんだろう？
嘘つかなくなるんだろう？
楽しく人生送れるんだろう？
部屋きれいになるんだろう？
友達と仲良くなれるんだろう？
恋人と上手くやってけるんだろう？
時間通りに物事進められるんだろう？
多趣味になれるんだろう？
早起きできるんだろう？
人見知りなくなるんだろう？
物知りになれるんだろう？
余計な事言わなくなるんだろう？
尊敬されるんだろう？
嘘つかなくなるんだろう？
楽しく人生送れるんだろう？
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
08.11.11
It's definitely been too long of an escape from reality. It's been over two years since coming back to Japan and I just cannot say in any way I am doing well.
I kind of came to a quick realization of what is happening; I have been somewhat different, in a way a bit cool having lived in different countries and being able to speak some languages well enough to impress people to some level. In reality I ain't no different. I am rather a mean, unconfident and and yet a stuckup person. I have been kind of living comfortably with this fake reputation of being different but I am getting older and I am not new to Japan anymore. I am not that kid that just has just come back from abroad woo.
So I should just live with who I am rather than sticking to my past experienced. This actually is the first time I feel so believe it or not. I am not exotic anymore because of what I have done. It's time that I wake up and actually work hard to be exotic and special. I don't know how I will achieve this, or even whether I will ever, but the first step is to try hard at everything to the point I can say I am good at everything.
I kind of came to a quick realization of what is happening; I have been somewhat different, in a way a bit cool having lived in different countries and being able to speak some languages well enough to impress people to some level. In reality I ain't no different. I am rather a mean, unconfident and and yet a stuckup person. I have been kind of living comfortably with this fake reputation of being different but I am getting older and I am not new to Japan anymore. I am not that kid that just has just come back from abroad woo.
So I should just live with who I am rather than sticking to my past experienced. This actually is the first time I feel so believe it or not. I am not exotic anymore because of what I have done. It's time that I wake up and actually work hard to be exotic and special. I don't know how I will achieve this, or even whether I will ever, but the first step is to try hard at everything to the point I can say I am good at everything.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Thursday, November 3, 2011
03.11.11
Two weekends ago I went to Taipei. It was a magical trip that took me back to Japan at the state it should have always stayed at.
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