28.01.10

Just as I am sitting at work,
my heart is pounding really fast,
as if my whole body is predicting myself to go into some kind of trouble.

I woke up this morning, and the first thing I saw was an unfortunate accident with a train and an old woman.

I got to work and saw that it happened.

Perhaps I am getting some power from the oysters I ate yesterday.

Or they were magic mushrooms that looked like oysters.

17.01.10

Last year around this time I was in Stockholm, probably remembering the trip to Reykjavik that I had gone on.

Thinking of what to do for thesis, going out partying with Eva, Mari, Christian and Gisel.

Dreaming about seeing the northern lights,
and seducing Sacharias into going there with me.

Late night in the studio,
talking on MSN with Tien.


This year I spend more than half of my life at work,
1/3 with Kie and Tugba,
1/6 online talking to Hubi, Annie and Yoko,
1/12 with Paul, and
1/12 being shaken on the train, while being squeezed by mash of businessmen and drunken college students.


Next year I'd like to spend it in the mountains,
surrounded by animals and fresh vegetables.

12.01.10

Need for a change:

An urgent need for a documentation of my thoughts.
Personal stories that's gone public.

Hopefully this will be a step to bring my thoughts out to those,
who are going through similar minds and can relate to mine.

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The year of the tiger began with Paul (of whose name will be mentioned quite often here, for sure) and me being tigers. A house party with friends / new people. Exactly the way I like it.

Oh yes, a Happy New Year.

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ゆらゆらしてる海藻じゃだめ。
その周りを泳いでる金魚でもだめ。
動けない小石でもだめ。
えさあげ忘れ多い飼い主でもだめ。

じゃあどうしたらいいの？

11.01.10

大好きな事こそ
不安になりすぎてしまう。
無くしたくないものへの執着心が
空回りしてしまっている最近。

ずっと欲しかったものが
やっと手に入って
大事にしすぎて

でもなくならなくて
ずっと一緒にくれるから

もっと大好きになり
もっと不安になり、

その繰り返す
このポリリズム。