25.03.11

今回の震災で色々考えることが出来た。

その考えられる、将来に希望が持てるということ自体、
感謝するべきだと思う。

今こうやって仕事中にもブログを書いていられる自分。
メールや電話で好きな人に話せる自分。
家族や知り合いに被害がなかった自分。


節電やガス不足、また放射能で不安になることはある。

でも、生きていてしかもやりたいことが出来る自分に感謝。
そして、こういった環境にいられるのも、
今周りにいる友人や家族、そして遠くにいる知り合いのお蔭です。

今の自分に導いてくれた人たち。

迷いはあるけれど、
自分の信じることに突き進んでいきたい。

大丈夫、まだ生きてるから。

21.03.11

More than a week before the biggest disaster in Japan, since the WWII.

People in Tokyo live in fear;
yet they show no sign of it - and instead they live and work as they usually do.
This is not because they are not scared, but they have hope.

They have hope for the country.

They also don't want to show any fear, so those up in the north, who have no houses, food, electricity, warmth, or even family, friends or lovers, have less fear.

I am in Tokyo right now.

I left it for two days, due to loneliness of all my friends leaving.

My best friend and my love, left.
No sign after their leave. Just the fact they were enjoying their lives.
Happy for them, but it wasn't very easy.

Me not being able to leave, being left alone, trying to convince myself that it's fine.

So I was thinking to myself it was all their fault, until I started realizing that they are just doing what they wanna do, and I'm just not a part of their lives as much as I think they are in mine....but well, tough luck.

I called around to see who's up for hosting me, found a very nice friend that has a really nice house back in Shizuoka.
Good food, good house, good town...it was very nice, indeed.


But enough of my weekend; the place I am spending my life in is going through much bigger problem.

We still have yet to figure out how to build up the economy and have the trust from the people towards the government.

It's tearing apart; people leaving Tokyo temporarily.

We need to stick together.

But it's late now, I will write later.

24.01.11

I can depend on a lot of people,
but just not the one I want to depend on.

I might as well spend the life on my own.

23.11.10

on the edge.
between fall and winter.
warm to cold.

being ok, to needing warmth.

05.10.10

Praise us:
Project by Tetta

04.10.10

Full of Happiness and Disguises:

On Sunday Linus and I went all the way to Yokohama to do a costume fitting for the parade we will be participating in China Town!

He seemed to really like Yokohama and I am very happy that we got to spend a nice post-reunion quality time there!

Poo to Paul for not hanging out with us!

02.10.10

Fancy Him:

the first time Paul and I didn't fight in the cho.
He's a good guy when he isn't drunk. Phew.