01.04.13

不幸な自分に捧げる言葉

てめーは不幸なんかじゃねぇ！
運がねぇだけだ！

結局意味は同じ。

I'm not a bad person. I'm just so far away from being perfect.

06.03.13

Getting yelled at for something I didn't do....I don't mind but it doesn't really feel all that great. Pffff

02.03.13

I love raising questions, but I really hate coming up with conclusions... Especially conclusions that involves presenting to others.

01.03.13

Today was a very inspirational and a kind day. In many ways. Nothing went wrong, I felt like the whole Tokyo was really at ease. Deep inside I'm still tense as a rock, but I feel like all the ice that has melted in my heart is slowly freezing back again. Out of a warm pool that its been in, I feel like I need to put a lot more pressure to myself. Put some cold and nasty hands in myself just so me in me can regain his shape.

It's so hard to remember what I used to like. It's hard to relearn how to enjoy life once that how to is forgotten.

One thing I learned: it's hard, but it's not impossible.

The question of the day:
一月から三月生まれが早生まれなら、遅生まれはいつ？

01.01.13

A happy new year!

My new years eve was wonderful hanging out with my konstfack friend Clara and her boyfriend Joe! So memorable! We went to a shrine and waited in line for 3hours...this morning we all went to my grandparents house and ran into 7 gods on the way.

Pretty good year so far!

05.10.12

So in the midst of my job searching I decided to change my life completely, which means finding another place to live. I've always thought going to another city or another country makes a great change in life; of course that's true, but I'm starting to realize that's not the only way to make a change in life. I think it's actually more difficult to change your life with what's already given to you at a certain time and a certain location. Right now, as I am almost turning 30 and I'm stuck in Tokyo, I'm trying to make myself stronger and learning a lot of things to make things better. Job search isn't so much fun, but the apartment search is better. It's almost funny to be looking for those two things at once because one is how to get more money for less time and the other one is how to get more time (considering the commuting time and the walking distance from the station etc...) with less money. Although, looking for an apartment isn't as easy as I expected in Japan- there is key money, insurance, deposit...broker's fee...man, it's gonna eat up my whole savings before I know it! So I'm hurrying up with the job search too - yup, it's a good balance. Here are some photos of the apartments that I LOVED.